today colin's mom watched saylor for a couple hours and we had some QT in dublin. we did the usual reading at barnes n'noble for awhile and when we left there was a homeless women who asked us if we had any change. my knee-jerk reaction was 'oh,no,sorry' and i kept walking.i had 50 cents in my pocket. why the heck did i say no? we kept walking and i asked colin to run back and give her some money,and he did.i think i reacted like that because i was embarassed! and like it wasnt enough. just handing her some change and going on about my relaxing day.this woman was desperate! what can we do.we sometimes don't want to give money because many use it for their addictions.a friend suggested we carry around $5-10 giftcards to grocery stores for moments like this. good idea though we don't often run into homeless people in westerville and dublin.. i have still been thinking that i want to do something/be a part of something that is making a difference. i feel like being a mother is challenging in a spiritual way for sure-i'm realizing more and more how aware he is of what i do-just because he is young doesn't mean we can't worship the Lord together.....and i'm so grateful for my friendships, Jesus is there and we challenge and encourage one another...but sometimes i feel like i'm just trying to be a 'good' person,just trotting along. and i think Jesus is calling me to do more. I need to learn more about him. i know i need to read the bible more.plain and simple. i need-to read- the bible-more.i need to learn more about this man we worship and call our savior! and what does it look like to be a disciple of Jesus. more important than anything else in this world.
saylor was injured with colin's mom [juji] today.she was going down a slide with him and his foot got caught and he twisted or sprained his ankle.we don't think it's broken and doesn't look swollen but it is evident he is in pain.it happened around 1:30pm and he didn't walk for the rest of the day! he won't put any weight on it at all.she put ice on it for awhile and he loved that. and when he sits he is happy, he plays and talks.i think he is partly afraid to try walking on it. though when i picked him up and carried him he cried cuz his foot would be moving/touching something so we know it still bothers him.we will see how he is tomorrow.you think when you sprain your ankle it hurts to put any weight on it and you limp around.he doesn't know how to limp really though so it's probably really scary to try to put weight on it and feeling that pain. poor little stinker!
got to see some lovely friends today,graeters was involved and it was good.ice cream and company.
colin said he sometimes can't read my writing because i'm all over the place and i don't make sense.that's ok with me.i edit some as i write it but usually when i'm done i don't go back over and read through it much.plus it's my thoughts so it makes more sense to me! so sorry if i'm not completing thoughts or explaining things well, or giving bad examples or changing subjects abruptly, or trailling off [dot dot dotting] or going on and on, or abbreviating things or rambling.. hey, just like talking to me in real life!!! *sheepish* i realize sometimes i am quite scatterbrained/spacy i just pretend its all in order in my head.