Thursday, April 24, 2008

lingering sickness

i thought i was better for 2 days or so then WHAM tuesday my fever goes up to 103 and i can barely move.colin is now sick too,poor guy though was working at the time so i dragged myself to [a rundown no me gusta] urgent care and my mom came with me.very deja vu of a few months ago.same urgent care.same high fever.same stress of being so sick and having a child to try to juggle.last time they said it was strep throat [although it wasnt].this time he decided it was bronchitis.[also have a mucus cough,gross]the doctor was so rude..i was crying i was in so much pain.he told me i was dehydrated and my fever was very high,needed meds to bring it down.then he left the room and i was sitting there for a good 25 minutes,ready to pass out.a nurse finally walked by and asked if i needed anything i was like 'i need water,i need medicine,right now!' for the love of GOD that should have been the first thing they did! so they give me 800mg motrin,1000mg tylenol.then he perscribes 4 things-inhaler,steriods,mucinex,z-pak [antibiotics]...didn't tell me what he was perscribing or why...nurse and pharmicist insisted i take all of them right away. i only took the z-pak [2 pills] and the steriods [6 pills!]...and i ate,i hadn't eaten all day... and i don't take pills very often,i am weary of them and was hesitant to do within an hour i am throwing up so violently i thought i was going to choke myself.i have never felt that way being so lightheaded and shaky and dehydrated i was genuinely wasn't going away so colin and i go to the ER [it's around 10pm] and my parents kindly came over and took saylor for the night.and my mom and sister came with us to ER [thankyou]. well then we just sat there for 2hours and i fell asleep a little and drank water and finally felt big questions were did the meds get in my system at all? should i keep taking them? that became my only reason to stay but it was after midnight so we went home [the front desk lady apologizing to us..]did the medicine cause the vomiting? is it ok to just stop taking it? i called urgent care,my regular doctor,pharmacy,looked online...finally got an answer from a nurse hotline my insurance company offers. it should NOT be this difficult to get adequate healthcare!!!!! AAAGH. i am finishing the steriods [as it is not good to start then abruptly stop] and the z-pak.havent taken the mucinex or used the inhaler.not to mention all the meds were generic with random names i didn't know which was which or for feeling better now.been enjoying the weather with saylor and hoping to get a zoo pass with my sister here soon.
my friend kristin gave me this soy article ... what the heck?! soy! nobody knows this! the world is being duped and we are suffering for it.i can't say i will never touch soy milk or tofu again but i am definitly steering clear for the most's not like i need it or even crave it so no big change.and i signed up for the free mercola online newsletter.good stuff!
LOST tonight!

Tuesday, April 15, 2008

not feelin' groovy

my son is sick, and i am sick. blah.we went to kentucky this weekend so saylor could meet his great-grandma rigsby for the first time. it was was a small town and it was cold outside so we were a bit cooped up but i very much enjoyed spending time with colin's dad's's a totally different world than we live in but it was great to spend time with them and i had a southern accent coming home which i was kinda excited about because i've pretty terrible at accents. we left on sunday,saylor had had a fever for four days and on the ride home he was pretty miserable.we took him straight to urgent care-ear infection in both ears! at this point i'm feeling pretty sick as well and now i'm still fighting the fever and is quite difficult to take care of a child [a sick child!] and be sick yourself but i constantly think all day... how do mother's do it with more than one child?! and they work full time?! i cannot complain.colin is so very's kinda a stressful month.
colin's grandpa Joseph died 19 years ago.his grandma-Mug- said he was the finest man she ever knew..i wish i could have known him.he, like colin's grandpa on his mom's side,was an artist [the whole family drips with artistic talent it's insane!] here are some paintings that are hanging on the walls at Mug's house.for some reason i cannot make the pictures larger so it hardly does them justice so please go to and click on artwork to see some more good stuff. :)

self portrait

portrait of his father lake

i wanted to include this picture because we were talking about it. the picture is of Mug and mark said he grew up with this picture hanging in the bathroom.he said it became particularly awkward during his adolescent years as he kinda wanted to look at it...but kinda had the feeling it was his mom,though no one ever spoke of it.flash forward 30 years or so, they are on the phone and mug says 'mark.i want to tell you something.the picture of the nude woman in our bathroom is me' she was surprised he knew.haha! i love that no one ever talked about it yet she felt compelled to confess it.

a couple more

saylor sweating buckets,working his fever off

comin' home

Saturday, April 5, 2008


i have said this before-i am not good at verbalizing things i feel strongly about. i'll read and discuss with people and feel chock full of info,then someone asks a question in a suspicious tone and i lose it.we've felt at peace with our decision not to vaccinate and i've remained pretty neutral.but lately a little passion has stirred and my opinions are a little stronger.heres a few websites i've found to be informative.i am still looking for a book that explains [reveals] it all.there are many but wanting to find a great one that i can buy. anyone know of any? i've recently subscribed to mothering magazine. [it is cheaper to subscribe online but i've opted for the real copy as i have a feeling i'll be toting it around showing articles to people] i love this magazine! every page..i want to like..crawl into it and live in it. ya feel me?

if you are so inclined...

these are just a few ive looked at,anyone know any more?
and i'll just tack this one on here too cuz we like it.

Friday, April 4, 2008

hodge podge

earlier this week saylor cut his finger on the end of a guitar string.bled alot,and he was perplexed by the bandaid.then colin cut his finger bad on a i had to follow,with a knife,trying to cut some mozzarella.we are a bandaid finger family.
saylor spent three hours in his crib today. playing,not sleeping.felt bad leaving him in there so long but i kept hoping he'd fall asleep.i tried going in once to re-rock him and he just when i finally went in to retrieve him i had a stern look and i was all ready for a little talking to 'saylor.this is nap time. you need...' but no i had the face then i look at his and it is this huge smile and then he just laughs and what the heck.can't be mad at that.he wasn't even whining.some quality alone time i naturally as we are driving to have dinner with the evan's he falls asleep in the car poor little peanut.but he did great at their place.what was i thinking,bringing toys. brett had tons of toys for saylor! he had fun with them.we watched flight of the conchords,i just may have to buy a season of that,quite funny.
for the last year or so... i cannot seem to break an egg anymore without like 5 bits of shell getting in there! what's the deal?! and colin says lately he's been great at it so it's not the eggs, it's me.
i wish i had a video of this morning-caiden and saylor dancing to the music on the movie alvin and the chipmunks.and caiden says 'dance saylor, dance!' and they shook their little bums.there is something about children,being so free.
i keep getting surprised with how much saylor understands,verbally. right now he signs please a million times a day [i'll try to keep track for a whole is alot,it's hilarious.and awesome].so please which also means 'please, help, more/again' and the sign for eat which he does for 'eat,drink,paci' and then he signs 'all-done'.he signs 'book' a ton too as he loves to read.and he does 'potty' and 'hat'.he loves to brush his teeth and tonight we taught him the sign for brushing teeth in one second,just showed him real quick.we then talked about it later on our drive home and he started making the! then we get home,walk in the bathroom.saylor what are we going to do? he does the sign. it's then i'm feeling like this kid wants to communicate so bad! he seemed so satisfied to have a way to express that he knew what was going on.i feel like we understand each other pretty great, and he does not whine very often as he just signs please furiously.. haha. but i may start doing some more signs with him....
now colin needs to get in bed and yes...our internet only works in one spot in our apartment,that is,right where colin sleep.isn't that something.i think it's funny.
you accomodate to what you're given.thank you lord.

Thursday, April 3, 2008

check it out

i'm having difficulties inserting links on my blog as there is nothing for me to click here to make it an option.i've got the 'spell check' the 'add image' and 'preview'...i'm wondering if this is because i don't have a gmail account? or is it because i am on my mac? maybe i should write these questions on a blogger message board.whatever, i found another way to do it in the meantime.
i read memoirs/biographies/autobiographies [is it graphys or graphies?! both look weird all the sudden.graphies.i think] almost exclusively.i don't know why.well i love them.i prefer nonfiction over fiction anyhow and now with my trips to the libe that have to be quick with a little boy running around i don't have much time to seek out different genres. i just quickly grab some memoirs and off i go.good excuse? well naturally this seeps over into my love of the documentaries are becommin... becoming what the heck why am i forgetting how to spell. ok so i love documentaries too. got wrapped up in this one last night. loved it.leeettle crush on the filmmaker amir bar-lev.
my kid could paint that
im also finishing the prize winner of defiance,ohio a great book and just now realized how i recognized the title-it was made into a movie! i will definitly watch the movie now.don't know how it will be but the book is a fun read.
and i'm just getting into beautiful boy a book we are selling at far it is good although you can't really say 'good' with a subject like that.
yesterday woulda been a great 'day in the life' post but alas i did not capture enough pictures. i will make a point to do that soon i think it would be fun....