Wednesday, January 14, 2009

so cold!

saylor has the greatest smile but he rarely will give me a smile on cue. in the first picture he is trying though and halfway gets it. it's ok, all my smiles until age...10 were simply me showing my teeth. it's hard to make a smile!
still in my funk but i think am slowly coming out of it. colin has been amazing these past few weeks. i don't know why this has attacked me but i am trying to lean more into the lord. i think this whole sickness, besides my sinus infection has been crazy anxiety. the beginning was an awful panic attack that has left me drained and anxious since. i've always dealt with anxiety but it has never been to this degree. the physical symptoms have been unnerving, to where i felt it couldn't be just anxiety. i am thankful to see the lord in this. went to church for the first time since feeling this way on sunday. i was feeling crazy nauseous and felt like i could barely make it through the service. i actually prayed someone would have a word that would call me up for prayer. our church has like what, 8,000 memebers so there aren't always specific words for people to come up. but lo and behold our pastor rich nathan called forward 'people who've been having panic attacks and i feel like there may be someone or people experiencing severe nausea...' haha! i was excited. i'm frustrated with how i've been feeling but i trust jesus will guide me through this and i'll use it to glorify him- even if it's just to be able to understand someone else that goes through this. it's worth saying again that colin has been wonderful. i'm thankful for a patient loving husband. aw sheesh i love him. anyway would love prayer that i would continue to be healed from this!
we are watching LOST!


Aaron, Sarah, and Emily Walter said...

You've got a great hubby! :)

Kelly*Marie said...

That's so amazing about church. I found an English speaking church in Barcelona, and I'm gonna try it out on Sunday. I am really excited because they have a college group. So I'll pray for you to get better, and you can pray for me to find a community here. :)

Sarah said...

You are so brave to go out in the cold to play! The little bird on the top of your blog - I have that framed and hanging in my bathroom, It was a card I found at Target but I loved it so much I had to have it for myself!

Happy Hippie said...

I will be praying for you too. I have delt with major anxiety before. You are taking the rite steps. Everytime you feel it coming on just pray and talk to God.That's the only way I was able to get through it, and having others pray for me. You are so blessed to be married to someone so understanding!