today

saylor is currently sad because he dropped his spiderman musical toothbrush [that he got in his christmas stocking] down the sink drain. well to clarify, he told me he didn't drop it there, he was trying to see if it would fit down there. and it got gross. lesson learned. we just got back from a photo shoot for mcgraw/hill, he had tons of energy but did great and had fun. i love going to them too! it's so interesting, i would not mind working a job in that field..i got some veg.sushi at raisin rack for the second day in a row, because i'm pregnant. and it called to me. and it's so good. clover is playing with jujy today. she is so much chirpier now that she's not all stuffy/sick anymore. talking so much! i asked her where her lovey is this morning and she said 'i dunno. where is it?' and judy said when she walked in her house she said 'kitty cat, where aaaarrre youuu?'

alicia is home sick i think she got what me and clover had. yuck :( i'm still stuffy but doterra oils have helped me from feeling miserable. those.oils.are.amazing! i only had a couple hours of feeling awful-started the oils and had one bad night of sleep and that's it. seems everyone we know had the puking bug [ughggghgh and of course me/saylor/clover got it when colin was gone, good times] and now everyone is getting bad colds. having kids just heightens it all, bugs are passed more often and are more annoying to deal with. ooooh well!

the weather has been crazy. i'm not complaining. i am wondering if february will be like blizzard town or what. saylor doesn't think it's winter because there's hardly been any snow.

got an otterbox for my phone yesterday. GOOD cuz it drops all the time. WEIRD because it's very slippery. like asking to be dropped. what the heck?

colin's dad showed me this article from the wall street journal. interesting! mark and i and my mom are all mixed-handed and write with our left hand. my mom read this and proceeded to read more about the topic and made me take a quiz on how mixed handed i am. i always thought it was cool to be left/mixed handed. so apparently i have a higher risk of a mental disorder, whatever. :) i'm excited that clover is left handed.

year in review

found this on my friend jenny's blog and yes i'm late but i'm trying to get back in the swing of blogging! this may be hard because i can't remember this year um...i keep thinking of 2010 stuff!

1. What did you do in 2011 that you'd never done before?
a candida diet for 3 months. it was horrible.

rode in a car on the beach

went to this crazy interactive play

started seeing dr.maureen [kinesiology], teresa [best counselor ever] and kathy [midwife] :)

2. Did you keep your new years' resolutions, and will you make more for next year?
i can't remember what my main goal was.. so perhaps i did not keep it. but i always make them!

3. Did anyone close to you give birth?
2010 was the year of hundreds of us giving birth. 2011 was a pause and now 2012 is going to bring another hundred babes!

4. Did anyone close to you die?
dear friend lost a baby boy. did not attend any funerals.

5. What countries did you visit?
stayed here. hubs did germany! i did cali and nagshead, nyc and nash at least ;)

6. What would you like to have in 2012 that you lacked in 2011?
motivation! for cleaning/cooking/working out/connecting more with people :) i was sick a lot then got preg sick so felt lazy in 2011.

7. What date from 2011 will remain etched upon your memory, and why?
i just had such fun time on all my trips. spending time with nimma and her complimenting my ease/simplicity with traveling with clover. my arrojo haircut and talking to the puppet in nyc. all of amber's hysterical quotes on our drive to nashville [where i was early pregnant and super nauseous], which i remember because i wrote them down AGH just checked and my notes have been deleted from my phone!!! AAAGH kids. i remember two quotes

1. after me saying how yum mary's sea salt brownies were 'yah she adds salt to her sweets so.... if i was a lesbian i'd marry her.'

2. in a sudden serious and nervous tone-'wait..are like..me and stephen, on the same level??' [attractiveness wise. HA!]

8. What was your biggest achievement of the year?
hm. i didn't achieve this per say but super happy to have found my doctor/kinesiologist who, along with supplements has helped guide me to better health.

helped my daughter learn to sleep 12 hrs a night that's an achievement!

9. What was your biggest failure?
hate the word fail. we got out of a rhythm of going to church though because the kids didn't like class. and i believe that along with other things affected our attitudes toward each other at times, colin and i. i was more selfish than i should have been.

10. Did you suffer illness or injury?
sick from what i found out was candida. i believe. and had a horrible puke virus.

11. What was the best thing you bought?
prolly our honda pilot.

12. Whose behavior merited celebration?
oh gosh. well i'm always amazed at colin, at my worst moments it seems he's gotten even more amazing at patience and directing it back to God. and he's such a hard worker. love him.

13. Whose behavior made you appalled and depressed?
there were a few things that shocked and surprised me about people...but God is bigger than it all and loves them so whatever. i have had to learn not to unhealthily take it on myself to fix. and/or let go of feeling personally offended.

14. Where did most of your money go?
well our bills of course. biggest payment was toward the car this year.

15. What did you get really, really, really excited about?
seeing kathy and teresa. cali and nyc!!

16. What song will always remind you of 2011?
i dunno the adele someone like you song?

17. Compared to this time last year, are you:
i. happier or sadder? same? i'm excited about our new boy.
ii. thinner or fatter? well said new boy is making me fatter fo'sure.
iii. richer or poorer? baby makin' us poorer for the time being :)

18. What do you wish you'd done more of?
church/quality time with jesus.

19. What do you wish you'd done less of?
complaining about pointless stuff.

20. How will you be spending Christmas?
we got up and the kids opened their gifts. then to my parents for breakfast/gifts. then colin's fam for dinner and gifts. and a seriously hysterical game of quelf

22. Did you fall in love in 2011?
i mean how could i not.

23. How many one-night stands?
just 4, i'm really working on that.

24. What was your favorite TV program?
got into parenthood!

25. Do you hate anyone now that you didn't hate this time last year?
no.

26. What was the best book you read?
hmm i love books. enjoyed the help, hunger games series, tina fey's book.. can't remember a book really grabbing me like crazy though.

27. What was your greatest musical discovery?
oh i dunno i enjoyed adele and florence and the machine. i'm typical. colin finally realized he liked mumford and sons.

28. What did you want and get?
seriously again, dr.maureen, teresa and kathy are awesome people who have helped and supported me in my health in many ways :) was excited to travel. and get the car. and i got pregnant :)

29. what did you want & not get?
well i will say i kept thinking this baby was a girl and cried when we found out it wasn't. but it has been a fun journey to falling in love with him.

30. What was your favorite film of this year?
oh sheesh there's still a bunch i want to see. bridesmaids is funny. but now i'm looking up all the movies i want to watch.

31. What did you do on your birthday, and how old were you?
i turned 27. colin was gone but set up to have some of my girlfriends come over and we lounged and talked and ate and they gave me gifts and it was sweet. i felt like 27 was a big/i'm getting older year. feel fine about turning 28 now.

32. What one thing would have made your year immeasurably more satisfying?
there are some personal things that i wish could have been handled better [although who responds perfectly in the heat of things].

33. How would you describe your personal fashion concept in 2011?
i'm more aware that i'm not 16 anymore so can i still get away with the shirt with the panda on it? embracing my stripes.

34. What kept you sane?
husband.friends.snuggling kids.traveling.jesus. netflix.

35. Which celebrity/public figure did you fancy the most?
i mean really.

37. Who did you miss?
my husband when he was gone, my kids when i was on my trips. my friends that don't live close.. it's great to see them on visits but so sad when we have to part again!

38. Who was the best new person you met?
hmmmm. fell into a good friendship with linzi :)

39. Tell us a valuable life lesson you learned in 2010:
like i said having to let go of things i'm not responsible for.balancing pursuing things and giving things to god.

40. quote a song lyric that sums up your year:
'it just takes some time, little girl your in the middle of the ride. everything, everything will be just fine.everything, everything will be alright alright.'

precious blog

i accidentally deleted this blog a couple hours ago. it was devastating! and seemed impossible to recover. very complicated. i do not like blogger/google tech support. AAAT ALLLLL. ideally i'd love my own domain/site...maybe someday. anyhow once it was miraculously recovered i went through and read a bunch and dang.. saylor was the happiest easiest baby ev-ah! clover is very easy... but is different. can be more particular. definitely a 'hard sell' hard to make her smile which i find really funny how solemn she can be. i love it. i am wondering what this next boy will be like. praying. :) well we are half way through january but i do have some new years resolutions that i've yet to write down so here goes:

1. journal more. the facebook/twitter/instagram makes it convenient to post that silly thought or picture but.. you lose some of the memories that way. i want to write here more and i also started this one line a day journal.

2. read the bible in a year plan? i just started this a few days ago. i have tried these before. so we'll see. this time it's on my phone though.. maybe make it more accessible?

3. lose the baby weight. he should be arriving in june so.. feasible :)

4. cook more. for the love! i need help/ideas for simple/quick meals for my kids.

5. organize. this is always ongoing and fun.. would like to tackle like.. all the basement/storage stuff... would like to participate in this baby bargain boutique thing we have here twice a year. my sister and i want to have a booth to sell all our baby stuff we are done with. i'd also like to 'organize'- spreadsheet? our finances. i've always resisted cuz colin's paychecks are so random and different every month [we were waiting on SEVEN different checks in the mail today. got one woohoo] but i've been thinking i'd like to somehow have better track of what's coming/going. this may sound boring/difficult for some people.. but i love this kind of stuff!

6. tattoo wedding rings? we don't so much like our wedding rings. think we might just tattoo something :)

7. as always, reach out more. connect with and pursue people. i love people. i hear pur in my head from pursue and it's making me want to add 'get a cat' because i keep wanting a cat. but maybe that'll be in '13. :) i know baby mister here will give us plenty o'snuggs for the time being.

8. talk less. i over think. and so i talk a lot. some friends have said NO don't talk less that's what makes you you! so i'll keep telling you the random thoughts and tangents but i would like to NOT say things that aren't necessary. to my own discretion. :) and mostly complain less! cuz i do that way too much.

i always make a bunch of resolutions and for the people who bah humbug them.. well boo to them because i like them and i have been able to follow through on a few of them. past accomplished resolutions- quit picking my nails, quit littering, get engaged, have a baby [written before i was pregnant and even know if i could get pregnant.] so see.. it's worth trying!

also... we think we have a baby name. AIEEEE why can't i do emoticons on here!! AND felt him kick on the outside with my hand today! 19 weeks tomorrow.